I think it would be a fair generalisation to say that : – People who suffer from periods of psychosis, tend to be thinkers. Not just in bouts of insanity; but all the time…
I’ve just mind meandered onto this odd theory/definition of psychosis…
‘Psychosis is a necessity; for the emotional development of certain people’ 😉 (Moi, 2012)
Thinkers can fall into the trap of over thinking and under feeling. If you’re a thinker, you’re likely a problem solver… and before you know it, you’ve totally lost touch with your feelings because you’ve rationalised the shit out of; not feeling anything
But when delusions loom, in my experience…they are always intrinsically linked to 3 things
For me at least, these 3 categories cover everything that I choose not to dwell on as a thinker. Everything I don’t want to feel sits under these umbrellas… and psychosis doesn’t shower you with stuff, it pelts you with lead injected olives!
I have profound realisations during this turmoil; because when you are really really scared of one thing, you lose the ability to be strong about the rest of the stuff in your life. And if you’re really unlucky, the dopamine shoots you some inner mdma (the base ingredient of ecstasy) and it completely removes all anger; opening up a river of empathy for others; one that your wise thinking mind could never grasp!
FOR DAYS… I haven’t stopped blubbing at movies I normally laugh at… I’ve lost the digi-box remote so its DVD ‘chick-flick-arama’ @ Dawny’s. Even the top ten comedies are making me sob like a baby!
So without this hell that I periodically go through…I may well be an emotionally detached robot. And that would be a truly shocking state of affairs
So I’m forced to say….Cheers Psychosis, you necessary yet hideous little Shite of my life you!