When I’m feeling blue, one of my favourite things to do is to spend the night reading your fabulous snippets of wisdom ere on WordPress… I do tend to subscribe to blogs that are positive, loving and spiritual, but some days, when the ugly side of life penetrates my brain, I’m all too aware that not everybody subscribes to love, or believes in it in the same way that we fluffy folk do
This past year my life has changed almost beyond measure, and it feels like I’ve done a decade’s worth of learning in a mere 12 months
I guess the greatest thing I’ve gained is faith and ‘The Experience of God Sized Love’
God literally saved my life 4 times and filled me with the most mahoosive dose of love and kindness, far past any feeling of love I have ever felt or could imagine
Most days I wake up and thank him profusely, but today I felt heavy, and for the first time, I was frightened that as my idealistic outlook gets dipped with some less pleasant droplets of reality, I might lose hope. So (you may think I’m insane for believing that he answers me) I got my trusty notepad out and asked him for his take – This was what followed
Q) God, If everyone is at worst, hurt (as opposed to evil) why don’t you heal them with your love?
A) I do, when they’re ready
I was thinking about all the tragic things I learnt whilst studying sociology and criminology and I was overwhelmed with sadness, and anger, and fear. Power is not easily overturned and it takes unity and time for change to occur, what if we run out of time and love doesn’t reach the corporate world?
Q) The world needs a miracle to stop the ignorance, why don’t you deliver it?
A) What makes your view the right one? Or the most important? Trust me
(well that shut me up for a whole minute :)) How is he soooooooooooooo wise?
Q) How do you cope with the pain of loving and seeing the dark side of humanity?
A) Because I am strong and because I see the bigger picture
Q) What is the bigger picture?
Q) What is truth (as opposed to fact)?
A) When things get really bad, things change
Q) How do I hang onto hope?
A) You work at it and you keep the faith
After this, all I could think about was him using all of us to do his work, it made me feel like he had guided me into every situation I’ve ever been in, for a reason. He was getting me where I needed to be to find him, but also, he was taking me where I needed to go for myself too…
I believe that he directed me to the subjects mentioned above because he knew that once I learnt about the dark underbelly of corporate crime, I wouldn’t be able to shut up about it! He has well and truly taught me that love is the most powerful and healing phenomena in the world, but I also know that we are a long way off of transferring this into business. Part of my job is to share the knowledge that I have been given, it is not comfortable or pleasant and it still shocks and enrages me just as much as it did when I learnt about it years ago. In an ideal world (which I dearly hope for) everyone would inject love into their dailies, but coldly signing up to murdering millions of people a year in the name of cash is clearly devoid of love, and I learnt enough to know that keeping this stuff a secret is entwined into every business plan going! So today, I am angry and I DO judge these people, rightly or wrongly…because I am human and I am passionate about this cause! I’m doing what I feel is the minimum I can and should do, which is inform as many people as possible of these secrets, because they will only change if they are pressured to do so. I hope that one day, there will be enough love amongst the informed to force them into changing their ways!
God didn’t make me an opinionated mare with a passion and yearning for equality, and then imbue me with dark and twisty facts for 3 years and expect me to shut up about it! So today folks, I’m afraid Dawny is not joyous, but pensive and disillusioned and fully willing to express my views, ‘cos my hope is kept alive by dreaming of a better world! If my offshoot of anger causes a universal ping back of anger in my direction, I shall suck it up for the greater good 🙂
Unrelated, but I had a lovely thought at about 5pm which was duly welcomed – WHAT IF, contrary to popular belief, the people who secretly call all the shots in the world (at the very top of the chain) are NICE!!!! If so, Yay all day for that one!
CORPORATE CRIME GRIPS MY SHIT!!!!