You Said There is Something Beautiful About Sadness…Why?

Because we are real when we are sad            

Because it deepens the shallow and weakens the strong

Because it is where I often rest, and where there is rest, there is peace. Peace is not happiness per se’.

Because it is probably not your resting state…it is the opposite of normal for the majority of people. It is different and that which is different is always beautiful, even if that beauty remains hidden to most

Because it is the music and the melody of the ‘resting places’ on the journey to riches of the soul…Depth. Compassion. Insight. Empathy. Wisdom. Love. Forgiveness

Because it is a force of nature and a force for change

Activist Post 6-3-15… “New Zealand Now Recognizes ALL Animals As Sentient Beings!”

YAY!! Also, bout bloody time but better late than never…God I really hope this catches on worldwide!!! We’ve done enough damage me tinks! Poor animals and poor planet earth. I wonder if any other species has caused such cruelty and destruction to soooooo many billions of other species as the human race??? Heads up to Lil Trissus for educating us all on the in’s and out’s of factory farming and to all the True Activists who fight for the animals. Just because we have ended up ruling the planet, it does not mean we are any better than animals. In fact, they seem to be more caring, playful, civilsed, empathic, free, happy and environmentally responsible than us humans. PPS. WWF, one of the largest animal charities in the world, has not secured ONE piece of legislation to protect ONE animal on the planet! I spent a whole night reading the small print, and it came from the horses’s (pun pun) mouth (WWF website). On the positive side though 🙂 GO New Zealand! Lil Dawny is proud of ya

‘Beauty In The Madness’

Ignorance is bliss

Ignorance is mistaken

Ignorance is dangerous

Intellect is a blessing

Intellect is profound sadness

Intellect is a vehicle

Naivety is peace

Naivety is lacking

Naivety is vulnerable

Protection is vital

Protection is fear

Protection is suppression

Love is divine

Love is death

Love is insanity

Vulnerable is breath taking

Vulnerable is undetectable

Vulnerable is terrifying

Patience is selfless

Patience is inconsistency

Patience is a facade

Anger is control

Anger is too sure

Anger is passions fire

Understanding is everything

Understanding is kindness

Understanding is immeasurable

Human is inhumane

Human is difference

Human is change

Jealousy is love

Jealousy is venom

Jealousy is purity

Life is beautiful

Life is hell

Life is insignificant

Life is everything

Every word is all of these… simultaneously…in opposition…equally…and in contradiction…

It’s what we hear with our ears and see with our eyes that determines which of the definitions we gravitate towards. But I think the only way to see them is to acknowledge the reality of the truth in every contradiction you see above. Because for some, the heart is often unable to choose the nature of its perception!

This is an example of ‘Beauty in the Madness’… for me

shapes

turned to

letters

turned to

words

turned to

meaning

turned to

turned to

being.

We are indeed made of words…

 

Bin The Labels…and Please Make Way For The Connections

If I ruled the world, I would begin by eradicating labels from society…ALL of them (almost)

There would be no – Black, White, British, Spanish, Old, Young, Liberal, Conservative, Sociopath, Bi Polar, Cancer, Farmer, Waitress, Unemployed, Married, Single, Disabled, Blind, Forgiving, Vengeful, Kind, Generous, Sweet, Cruel, Upper Class, Learning Difficulties, Healthy, Sick, Damaged, Fixed etc

When I studied sociology, I learnt about the importance of labels. I was taught that when a new label was introduced to mainstream language, it was a reflection of a ‘groups’ needs being recognised.

I was also taught that when a new label replaces an old one, such as the change from ‘Spastic‘ in the 80’s; to ‘A person with Learning Difficulties‘ in the 2000’s; the change is a reflection of a group trying to shed the stigma of being attached to a label that is mocked/ridiculed/mistreated/misunderstood/considered lesser

Sociology aside, life has taught me more about labels than any academic theory ever could.

A Letter to My Fix…Addicts and Bandages

Dear best friend and worst enemy,

Someone asked me about you last week. About what you do for me and what exactly our relationship to each other is. Whilst you remain indifferent, incapable of caring about which one of us randomer’s uses you; I am somewhat more attached to us and our rendezvous’… Firstly, it was just me and you back when my life was nothing more than a living breathing nightmare, straight from the fiery pits of hell, and worthy of a thousand great horror stories. Me and you. You were the only vehicle capable of taking me between 2 worlds and back to this one again. It was me and you here when all those miracles occurred in front of my eyes, no denying them, or their pure unadulterated life changing essence. You were there when I was too shy to show my other best friends who I had become.

Now I have no idea who I am anymore; so your filling the gap between self acceptance and self-expression until further notice or further bravery, whichever comes first.

Back then, You were there when I couldn’t lift my head up off the arm of the chair; when the only time I moved was to go to the loo. When I was so depressed it was an effort to breathe and a daily battle with suicidal fantasies. Yes. Fantasies. I wanted nothing more than to die back then.

Life…Pessimist, Realist and a Jolly Deluded Soul Discuss Ages 0-30

What are life’s biggest universal lessons from the age of 0 – 20 years old?

Pessimist – To learn how to become mildly tolerable to other humans, whilst maintaining the wholly narcissistic qualities we were all born with. Perfecting selfish methods to get whatever self-serving gift we want, whilst life throws crap at us. Crap after crap after more crap that is

Realist – To learn how to speak, think, act and do a variety of tasks; guided by parents, leaders and teachers who hope we will leave school as an independent and reliable ‘social skivvy’s/Capitalist servant’…

Jolly-ist – The wonder years…No responsibilities, our ‘free-est’ time, school days are the best days of your life etc. Childhood is when and where we see the world with beauty, innocence, laughter and love. And the world gives us beauty, innocence, laughter and love back (and a few lessons)

How about years 20 – 30?

Pessimist – 10 years of chasing love with all the wrong people, overcoming the addiction of dating monsters for the drama addiction. Realising the true hell of working 40 hours a week in a job you despise. Learning that there are a very limited number of positions in society that allow true happiness to flourish. Destroy approx 50% of one’s brain cells, consuming copious amounts of drugs/alcohol and fags

I Will Be Your Eyes Until You Can ‘See’ Everything…

They sat in English class together, paying no attention to the teachers speech, nor to ‘Of Mice and Men’. They were gassing like their lives depended on it!

“What is blue like?” she asked

“Blue is running as fast as you can into the waves, it is diving head first into the rushing sea. Blue is freezing cold lips that come from a night out in the snow, or from sucking an ice lolly hard and fast.”

“White?”

“White is the colour of innocence. White is unusual, as it holds all the other colours within it, yet it is almost colorless in appearance. White is a newly fitted, pristine kitchen with a fridge, freezer, washing machine and dishwasher. White is cotton wool, and the grainy texture of the chalk they use for writing on a blackboard”

“Red? What is red like?”

“Red is a boiling hot camp fire on a winter’s night. Red is the colour of passion and of angst. Red is a racy looking lady on a saturday night up town. Red is all lips and kisses. Water is see through and blood is red. When you feel the slight thickness of blood against water, you feel red”

“What are you like?” she asked…smiling

“When I’m being categorised according to my skin colour, I am white, but not like the white I described. I am actually a peachy pinky beige if we’re gonna get a little detailed about it :)”

Cuteness Overload, Not To Mention His Cheek!!! ;)

Here is a video of one of my amazing pussy cats (Mr Shamone) helping himself to my cup of tea! His paw action may well be the cutest thing I’ve seen this decade!

Don’t miss the little treasure!

How bloody cute is my thirsty little fella?

As I state in the video…Them boys could get away with blue murder! 🙂

Miracle anyone? Trippy Tree Fact worthy of Gargantuan Ponderage

I learnt this bit of trivia at school (Oooooo but it’s so not ‘just’ trivia now). For every calendar year that passes, a tree makes a ring of age (distinguishable by its unique colour), and it follows exactly the same year that we adhere to. Each ring represents another year of its life

SHOCKING!!!

365 days is what we humans decided to call a year (or so we think) and this is apparently because it takes 365 days for the sun and the earth to do one lap around each other (whichever way round that works ;))

Well well well…I’m sure this scientifically advanced piece of knowledge was not available to us back in the day when a year was ‘invented’

NOw for trippy point 2…This 365 days seems to have stemmed from lunar/solar cycles and must have held some weight for a year to be what it is. A universal scientific measurement of time passed that controls much of our life in terms of measurement (decades, university years, the new tax year, new years resolutions, once a month commitments…all expressions of the year or sections of it)

If we are not all connected, how does a nature driven organism (a tree, fed by the  earth, rained on for growth, rooted in the ground, dictated by seasons ) somehow become aware of its passing of time, from 1 year to the next?

When Mensa Take The Piss (part 2)

Clues

Hilary is playing sudoku in the green room

Edith has a budgie who swears like a navvy

Ron has severe amnesia, Julie is his carer, and just reminded him of their trip to the supermarket that morning

 

Fill in the blanks

Ron has proposed to the budgie _ times

Hilary has two 9’s in one row. How much was the book to buy _

Does Edith use Wiltshire farm foods. If yes, how often? _

 

(Chortle Chortle :))

You!!! Wonderful Awesome Life Transforming You…You!!!

You are wise and loving, gentle and tender

You took my will, and said “I will bend her”

You turned me into a blade of grass

Pushed that through concrete to prove I can last

Not for the purpose of others, no matter who

This journey has been about just me and You

My best friend, my beloved, my forever protector

Illuminating wisdom on our virtual projector

Leading me or leaving me up front, balanced to perfection

Sometimes you took the blow first, softened the rejection

Living the Dream…Post Revolution! What would YOU do???

Sooooo…The people have overthrown the government and each community has been given a portion of the pot of gold (or tax)…The portion is directly related to a) Catchment area b) Last years budget and c) the number of people in the area who are able to pay tax and those who are not (babies, under 16’s, the disabled, the unemployed, the elderly)

Each community is now responsible for their own pot…If we did Norwich, we would have 18.5 million to divvy about…

It also means keeping it ‘topped up’ so it can fund schooling, education, health services and other public services such as recycling, waste control, lighting etc, plus whatever your community decides is worthwhile

 

 

 

 

20 People from each community will be nominated by their fellow community members, as representatives for all of the services. They will be nominated on the following criteria

Are they:-

1. Trustworthy

2. Fair

3. Champion of equality

4. Possess Integrity (honesty and with a moral compass)

5. Mercy oriented

6. Described as a Good Person

7. Knows Ethics (stems naturally from equality)

Once these people have been nominated and selected, (by the whole community) they will form the ‘Community Leadership Group’

Success! One little word…One larger Irk!

I don’t know why I hate dislike the word success so much

Except I do

1) I think someone’s trying to tell me that, sooner or later, I/we will be ‘good’ enough to achieve success, and I automatically presume it is meant in the British sense, work work work, get a career, find a mate, have kids etc

2) My idea of success is not inline with the mainstream idea. Success to me is about who I am as a person, and how I am doing at ‘being’ (as in, to just ‘be’ me)

3) I realise that someone probably wrote that piece about success, due to their own ideas about what that is and how best to help someone achieve it. Then I’m torn between posting this moan insert and possibly pooping on some other blogger that has mentioned success today… (sorry dear blogger if this is the case) and being true to my blogs purpose, which is to express myself (and I also sometimes hope to inspire others when I’m not moaning)

BUT…

Yoga for The Toes and Fingers Anyone? Here’s hoping! :)

Anyone who knows me well will not hesitate to confirm that I am a die-hard hater of exercise

Because

1. I hate sweating

2. Due to a damaged nervous system, I sweat profusely from one side of my body only (having 2 sweaty pits looks like you’ve worked hard…One sweaty pit and you look like a freak, added to this, is the right side of my back being soaked whilst the left stays dry. I’m proper self-conscious about it

3. I don’t dig physical exertion at all

4. When you hate something, the brain is not clever enough to know you (apparently) secretly love it (as experts will have you believe). When your conscious thoughts about it are wholly negative, I believe the apparent endorphin rush expected during or after exercise is an alien concept. Feel good chemicals need feel good vibes

5. I always have something better to do when exercise is offered as the only other alternative

A Spiritual Attitude to This Crazy Thing We Call Life

Spirituality is one of those words associated with sooooo many different ideas right?..The familiar ones include the practice of meditation, prayer, and surrounding one’s self with nature…On I could go

My Dad is a really spiritual guy so I grew up with more of an idea than most, as to what spirituality means; but my relationship with it was transformed when I felt and experienced a delivery of love into my heart. Truly life changing love…God’s Love

My Spiritual attitude is ever evolving; as I grow I’m sure it will continue to change well into the future. This is where I’m currently at in my outlooks and ideas about what everyday spirituality means for me

1. My mentality (to a large extent) is ‘Live and let live’…Basically, I believe we are all on our own paths, and only God and I know me, and the same goes for everyone else…Only God and you know you.  You are the only one who can influence your path. It is not up to me to interfere with the spiritual journey of another, unless invited

2. I am learning to tell the truth when I most want to lie. This helps me to show those around me who I am, even though I bloody despise doing this when my self-expression is negative. But, when I do it, I honor my own worth and boundaries, not to mention my dysfunctional idiosyncracies (love thyself, poop bits included)

3. I proper try (and often succeed) in being non-judgemental (Again, my Dad talked about this a lot when we were little)

Feel Good Songs for ‘The Blues’

Feeling Blue?

I have discovered a little way of lightening the mental load

Make your self a feel good songs list on YouTube

(I read this week that people who listen to love songs take TEN times longer to get over a relationship, than those who don’t listen to mushy love stuff! SO with that knowledge under my belt, I began my quest for songs that don’t remind me of romantic love)

I have scoured the net looking for the ‘best 80’s and 90’s classics’, as well as the best reggae tunes ever

The rule is…If I start feeling blue whilst it is playing, I stop it…

Reason being…not to infect the list with my bad mood, and to do so before my brain associates the song with any sort of sadness

If I had any idea how to, I’d direct you to my own list, but as I’m a YouTube account moron, I’m afraid you’ll have to make your own list 🙂

Good Luck

I hope it works for you 🙂

It makes me less blue; may that work for you too (should you be blue!)

Luv Dawny 🙂 xxx

Grace and ‘God’s Glasses’

I knew the gift of grace in entirety, long before I knew its various definitions

I just googled it out of curiosity and found many different descriptions, words, synonyms, life stories etc

Grace came to me when I couldn’t see anything but hate

It was a dark time…An unbearable time in my life, of sickness and distress so alarming, I was totally overwhelmed and all I wanted, was to die

The awakening and entry of more love in my heart, as a gift from god, allowed me to ‘wish the best’ for my enemies!!! (Truly)

Grace allowed me to see their perspective and reasons, or at least, recognise that they had their own story, just like me and you and everyone else

It dissolved my jealous outlook on a particular situation, into something unrecognisable

Grace says ‘DO your thang, whatever that is, I personally ‘send you my best/good luck/peace vibes’

Socially Unacceptable Timing for Response to Question :)

As life ages me, it takes me longer and longer to answer a question and usually, 3 days later, I’m running through my head the actual answer…as in…the full comprehensive and specific description

So, in reality, this adds up to someone asking me a question and I either answer in a socially acceptable time frame with an incoherent less than poor attempt to explain whatever it is I’ve been asked about… or I leave the situation with the question hanging in the air and 3 days later I contact the questioner and say…I’m ready to answer your question now!

Either response is less than helpful to both asker and answerer!

More weird to add to my pile of oh too large amounts of weirdness

Dear Stranger…

Dear Stranger,

I may tell you my name, I will more than likely tell you about some of the ‘tragic comedic experiences’ of my life. I will tell you about the places I’ve lived and the jobs I’ve had. I’ll (maybe) tell you a little about my brain. I may even tell you about one or two of the people I’ve loved. But, dear stranger, I will never tell you this…

One day I had my heart-broken, in the most dazzlingly extreme, life shattering way that a heart can be broken. I won’t tell you what happened after either, because you wouldn’t believe it…I survived. Just. I really don’t wanna tell you the next thing.

I will never give anyone my heart again.

I Think I’m a Positive Cynic!! Anyone else? :/

Is there such a thing as a positive cynic

I’ve just looked Cynic up in the dictionary and it is someone who thinks the worst about people or outcome of events

I do this…

And then follow up with a belief/thought that everything will be alright in the end

Anyone else have this odd outlook?

That’s all I have to say about that, I’m off to read away to my hearts content. God bless the writers on tut internet!

Toodles